Thursday, July 24, 2008

Thank God It's Thursday

I know I should be more excited about Friday, but it is the day before Friday, and I think Thursday's are ok too. I miss Corrina so much. Even though it's been almost three years, the missing her, the longing to see her gorgeous face, or to hold her precious hand never diminishes. It's always with me, but so are all of the amazing memories of a mother and a daughter, all 18 years, 8 months, and 14 days of them.

I MISS YOU RINABEAN...with every fiber of my being and with every beat of my heart! You were the best daughter in the whole world, my best friend and the absolute love of my life.

Scott's socks are almost finished...YAY!!! As soon as they are I'm going to start the new socks that I got from my "sock of the month club". It's gorgeous yarn and a really pretty pattern. Maybe I'll keep these next one's for myself...we'll see.

Till next time...

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Knitting Fool

I've been knitting fast and furious on Scott's socks. I've knitted both heel flaps, and turned both heels. Now I'm working on the cuffs. I love knitting 2 toe-up socks with one circular's the greatest method by my opinion, anyway.

We are going to Dallas to see John Edward (psychic medium). I'm very excited. I love watching him on TV, and I've seen him once before in person. I know that my expectations may be a little high, and Corrina may not come through to him, but a broken hearted mom can sure hope, can't she.

Anyway, back to work!

See you next time.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Good News!

I've been on insulin for 1 1/2 weeks now, and wow, great results so far. I'm tickled pink. My 14 day average has gone from 199 to 156...YAY!!!

When I was first diagnosed with diabetes, Corrina made me promise to take better care of myself, and promise not to leave her. That was 6 months before her car accident. I should have made her promise not to leave me.

On the sock knitting front, I have only about a half inch to go before I can start on the heel, so that's good news. I'm looking forward to knitting all weekend.

Talk to you later.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

A Few Days Late

I've missed a few days of blogging. I know that no one reads this, but for some reason it comforts me to write it. I keep wishing for dreams of Corrina, and yet all my dreams contain, it seems, everyone but her. Why is that? Why can't I see her in my dreams.

I'm still knitting on Scott's socks, and I guess I'm about half of the way finished. I hope he loves them as much as I love making them for him. He is my life and my love. I hope he knows, as I'm not sure I tell him enough. I love the way he loves me, and I love the way he loved/loves Rina.

I'll try to be better at posting something everyday!

Tuesday, July 1, 2008


Today I started on insulin for my diabetes. The other med's I was on for it just weren't cutting it. So far, so good though. I had a little crying jag today at work, in my usual private crying area, the bathroom. I cried a little and talked to my angel, Corrina. I think most people would think I'm crazy, but I had the amazing privilege and pleasure of talking to that precious child for 18 years, 8 months, and 14 days, and I REFUSE to stop now. Because we knew each other so well, I can also imagine her talking to me too, and I know exactly what she'd be saying.

Well, I'm ready to relax and do some knitting. I love my knitting. It's my safe, comfortable, mind occupying haven.

See you tomorrow.